so i was filling out my FAFSA today, and it made me think about almost exactly one year ago today, when i was filling it out for the first time ever. it was weird, looking back, seeing that i put like 6 school codes onto the form, not knowing which school i would end up at. and now, my lonely one school of choice, chapman university, gets to remain on the ballot, the "winner" of some sorts. i don't think that i changed that much as a person over the course of this year, but all of my surroundings pretty much did a 360. i now have 2 homes- dorm & real house, 2 groups of friends- chapman & oxford, and i now have 2 jobs- one that pays, and one doesn't. haha.
i remember going into 2008 being so excited for the year to come- it was the year that all of my dreams were going to come true. and to be honest, a LOT of my dreams that i had set out to do came true-i got a new job at disneyland that i had wanted, i got into the college that i wanted, and even my wildest dream of meeting my guilty pleasure celebrity loves the jonas brothers came true! ridiculous, right? but into 2009...i just looked as it as another year to survive. but i don't just want to survive, i want to thrive, and to go through it trying to accomplish something and reaching for my goals...but i don't know what to strive for at this point, so i am simply surviving. don't get me wrong, i'm not a depresso or anything, i just am looking at the big picture i guess...
:)
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